Feeling Adrift

The Lasting Recovery that Comes with Connection

I’ve been feeling adrift lately. Lots of change in career and life. Good friends have moved away, people are very busy with family, and so am I. Just kinda like ships passing in the night.

I reach out to others, but they aren’t available to reach back - or when they do, I can’t take their call.

But what is curious to me is that I still feel peace. All the work I’ve done to foster connection has created a foundation. Like a bank account, I’ve had so many deposits that now, when I am struggling to make more, the dividends cover the distance.

Working with Unashamed Unafraid, attending Warrior Heart Bootcamp, and reaching out locally to guys in my church and other churches have helped me see that recovery and life are seldom perfect. It’s always fraught with ups and downs.

There are moments of peace, but that can often also feel like I’m stalled out. God works a lot on me when I’m going through stress. I’m working to have it be eustress - the kind that builds mental, spiritual, and physical muscle - rather than the distress that leads me down the dark roads of addiction.

Whether you are early in recovery or a seasoned veteran, hold on during the dark days. The light will - and does - come. Sometimes suddenly, like a spotlight, and sometimes ever so subtly, like the hour before a sunrise.

“Work, work, work. It works when you work it, so work it because YOU are worth it!”

By Pete, Writing Team