“It’s not about the sex. It’s not about the fantasy or the depictions that are portrayed in pornography it’s not about that at all.”
“There was the hope, but there was also the fear that my motivations were more out of fear than out of hope. It was fear of losing everything…fear of being discovered as a complete fraud…Doing recovery that way is bull shit.”
“I would feel the weight of what’s happened. It would become more and more clear to me that I can’t keep this up…I’m exhausted.”
“All the things that I feared, all the things that I was using my addiction to cope with, because of the fear, came true. It just left me with absolutely nothing. But looking back on that experience now, that was exactly what I needed. It stripped me of everything that I thought made me me.”
“It was in that state that for me real recovery happened. I started to have some real key experiences that changed the dialog in my head.”
“Slowly line upon line, just putting one foot in front of the other I was able to start coming out of that darkness.”
“For the first time in my life, I was more connected to God than ever. On a very deep and personal level, I had gotten a relationship with God.”
“I know without a doubt that God loves me and that I have a purpose in this life, and that it doesn’t really matter what I do. I will always be loved because I’m his, and because of that one abiding principal and assurance in my life it motivates me in everything that I do.”
“I’m alive.”
